“This life is what you make it. Not matter what, you're going to mess up sometimes, it's a universal truth. But the good part is you get to decide how you're going to mess it up. Girls will be your friends - they'll act like it anyway. But just remember, some come, some go. The ones that stay with you through everything - they're your true best friends. Don't let go of them. Also remember, sisters make the best friends in the world. As for lovers, well, they'll come and go too. And babe, I hate to say it, most of them - actually pretty much all of them are going to break your heart, but you can't give up becuase if you give up, you'll never find your soul mate. You'll never find that half who makes you whole and that goes for everything. Just because you fail once, doesn't mean you're gonna fail at everything. Keep trying, hold on, and always, always, always believe in yourself, because if you don't, then who will, sweetie? So keep your head high, keep your chin up, and most importantly, keep smiling, because life's a beautiful thing and there's so much to smile about.” 

You should date an illiterate girl.

Date a girl who doesn’t read. Find her in the weary squalor of a Midwestern bar. Find her in the smoke, drunken sweat, and varicolored light of an upscale nightclub. Wherever you find her, find her smiling. Make sure that it lingers when the people that are talking to her look away. Engage her with unsentimental trivialities. Use pick-up lines and laugh inwardly. Take her outside when the night overstays its welcome. Ignore the palpable weight of fatigue. Kiss her in the rain under the weak glow of a streetlamp because you’ve seen it in a film. Remark at its lack of significance. Take her to your apartment. Dispatch with making love. Fuck her.

Let the anxious contract you’ve unwittingly written evolve slowly and uncomfortably into a relationship. Find shared interests and common ground like sushi and folk music. Build an impenetrable bastion upon that ground. Make it sacred. Retreat into it every time the air gets stale or the evenings too long. Talk about nothing of significance. Do little thinking. Let the months pass unnoticed. Ask her to move in. Let her decorate. Get into fights about inconsequential things like how the fucking shower curtain needs to be closed so that it doesn’t fucking collect mold. Let a year pass unnoticed. Begin to notice.

 Figure that you should probably get married because you will have wasted a lot of time otherwise. Take her to dinner on the forty-fifth floor at a restaurant far beyond your means. Make sure there is a beautiful view of the city. Sheepishly ask a waiter to bring her a glass of champagne with a modest ring in it. When she notices, propose to her with all of the enthusiasm and sincerity you can muster. Do not be overly concerned if you feel your heart leap through a pane of sheet glass. For that matter, do not be overly concerned if you cannot feel it at all. If there is applause, let it stagnate. If she cries, smile as if you’ve never been happier. If she doesn’t, smile all the same.

Let the years pass unnoticed. Get a career, not a job. Buy a house. Have two striking children. Try to raise them well. Fail frequently. Lapse into a bored indifference. Lapse into an indifferent sadness. Have a mid-life crisis. Grow old. Wonder at your lack of achievement. Feel sometimes contented, but mostly vacant and ethereal. Feel, during walks, as if you might never return or as if you might blow away on the wind. Contract a terminal illness. Die, but only after you observe that the girl who didn’t read never made your heart oscillate with any significant passion, that no one will write the story of your lives, and that she will die, too, with only a mild and tempered regret that nothing ever came of her capacity to love.

Do those things, god damnit, because nothing sucks worse than a girl who reads. Do it, I say, because a life in purgatory is better than a life in hell. Do it, because a girl who reads possesses a vocabulary that can describe that amorphous discontent of a life unfulfilled—a vocabulary that parses the innate beauty of the world and makes it an accessible necessity instead of an alien wonder. A girl who reads lays claim to a vocabulary that distinguishes between the specious and soulless rhetoric of someone who cannot love her, and the inarticulate desperation of someone who loves her too much. A vocabulary, goddamnit, that makes my vacuous sophistry a cheap trick.

Do it, because a girl who reads understands syntax. Literature has taught her that moments of tenderness come in sporadic but knowable intervals. A girl who reads knows that life is not planar; she knows, and rightly demands, that the ebb comes along with the flow of disappointment. A girl who has read up on her syntax senses the irregular pauses—the hesitation of breath—endemic to a lie. A girl who reads perceives the difference between a parenthetical moment of anger and the entrenched habits of someone whose bitter cynicism will run on, run on well past any point of reason, or purpose, run on far after she has packed a suitcase and said a reluctant goodbye and she has decided that I am an ellipsis and not a period and run on and run on. Syntax that knows the rhythm and cadence of a life well lived.

Date a girl who doesn’t read because the girl who reads knows the importance of plot. She can trace out the demarcations of a prologue and the sharp ridges of a climax. She feels them in her skin. The girl who reads will be patient with an intermission and expedite a denouement. But of all things, the girl who reads knows most the ineluctable significance of an end. She is comfortable with them. She has bid farewell to a thousand heroes with only a twinge of sadness.

Don’t date a girl who reads because girls who read are storytellers. You with the Joyce, you with the Nabokov, you with the Woolf. You there in the library, on the platform of the metro, you in the corner of the café, you in the window of your room. You, who make my life so goddamned difficult. The girl who reads has spun out the account of her life and it is bursting with meaning. She insists that her narratives are rich, her supporting cast colorful, and her typeface bold. You, the girl who reads, make me want to be everything that I am not. But I am weak and I will fail you, because you have dreamed, properly, of someone who is better than I am. You will not accept the life of which I spoke at the beginning of this piece. You will accept nothing less than passion, and perfection, and a life worthy of being told. So out with you, girl who reads. Take the next southbound train and take your Hemingway with you. Or, perhaps, stay and save my life.

Truth

"You fight differently when you fight for something you love"

“Lord help me to do what I can and please go ahead to do what I can’t!”

"A great social success is a pretty girl who plays her cards as carefully as if she were plain"

"Family quarrels are bitter things. They don't go according to any rules. They're not like aches or wounds, they're more like splits in the skin that won't heal because there's not enough material." - Fitzgerald

“To succeed in life, you need two things: ignorance and confidence" Mark Twain

I've been in a really tough place with the unthinkable happening to me. At first I asked why God me, how could this possibly happen to me? Now I've finally realized I should never ask why, but instead ask how. How can I learn from this, how can I change, and how can I use this experience to help others. It's not easy when you are faced with terrible situations but it's much harder when you don't let your past go and realize you can't fix yourself only God can. The only thing you can do as a person of God is to live in grace and embrace your second chance to do better this time around. 

“Do not fear, for I have redeemed you;
   I have summoned you by name; you are mine.  When you pass through the waters,
   I will be with you;
and when you pass through the rivers,
   they will not sweep over you.
When you walk through the fire,
   you will not be burned;
   the flames will not set you ablaze. For I am the LORD your God, 

The moment I stopped caring what other people thought, the moment I truly became alive as me

"People in your life are seasons, and everything that happens is for a reason." Love the man who said this and love how true this is.. people change so much and so do you as a person.. But I love it.

Put on your shades cuz ill be dancing in the flames tonight

You can't change the past but you can change the future and not make the same mistake again..wise words from a friend that I needed to hear. I tend to dwell on the past and why I did something or what was I thinking and I need to not do that. Yes I made a mistake and regret it but I can't change it at all so embrace it and learn the lesson from the mistake. I need to think this way more and not beat myself up over the past. Thank you my friend <3

Happy Sunday!

Guard your heart more than anything else,
because the source of your life flows from it.
Proverbs 4:23

For where your treasure is, there your heart will be also.

she was precious like a flower

she grew wild, wild but innocent

perfect prayer in a desperate hour

she was everything beautiful and different

Send me away with the words of a love song

“People think a soul mate is your perfect fit, and that’s what everyone wants. But a true soul mate is a mirror, the person who shows you everything that is holding you back, the person who brings you to your own attention so you can change your life.

A true soul mate is probably the most important person you’ll ever meet, because they tear down your walls and smack you awake. But to live with a soul mate forever? Nah. Too painful. Soul mates, they come into your life just to reveal another layer of yourself to you, and then leave.

A soul mates purpose is to shake you up, tear apart your ego a little bit, show you your obstacles and addictions, break your heart open so new light can get in, make you so desperate and out of control that you have to transform your life, then introduce you to your spiritual master…”

Happy Mommas Day

‎"You should be known for the beauty that comes from within, the unfading beauty of a gentle and quiet spirit, which is so precious to God. 1Peter 3:4"

I'm here I'm now I'm ready

I wont ever be your cornerstone

One More Time With Feeling

It's like forgetting the words to your favorite song
You can't believe it
You were always singing along
It was so easy and the words so sweet
You can't remember
You try to move your feet
You spent half of your life trying to fall behind
You're using your headphones to drown out your mind
It was so easy, and the words so sweet
You can't remember, you try to feel the beat

"That's the best revenge of all: happiness. Nothing drives people crazier than seeing someone have a good fucking life"

I feel that sometimes, God doesn't change our current situation, because He is trying to change our hearts.

Happy Ever After is in Your Eyes

i carry you in my smile for the first time my true reflection i see happy ever after in your eyes every star in the night promises the dawn i will be there if you fall to ever so heavily rest upon. all that i can give you is forever yours to keep wake up every day with a dream and happy ever after in your eyes <3

xo

"cause it's a hard life, with love in the world. and i'm a hard girl, loving me is like chewing on pearls."

"applaud friends, the comedy is over" he said as he laid dying

No friend have I. I must live by myself alone; but I know well that God is nearer to me than others in my art, so I will walk fearlessly with Him.

Cross my heart..

Keep Heart

When you're lost and forsaken keep heart and let love in.

a man who would steal your love when your love is all you really have isnt much of a man

“

Charms strike the sight, but merit wins the soul

                       I'm learning to dance in the rain

To thine own self be true

Romans 8:28 - And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose.

our hands will eventually break everything that is beautiful

I am thankful for every breath I have, because Its given to me by God

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=97gSR19pOcc&feature=player_embedded

" Ya im scared im terrified, im scared for everybody else. Im scared for those that dont know where theyre going when they die im scared for those who might think they know but they really dont and am especially scared for those of you who are distracted by this world. School, sports, girlfriends, boyfriends, ipods, this or that. Distracted by anything and everything satan can throw in front of them."

We love because He first loved us.-1 John 4:18

And there will come a time, you'll see, with no more tears.
And love will not break your heart, but dismiss your fears.
Get over your hill and see what you find there,
With grace in your heart and flowers in your hair.

They say what goes up must come down, but don't let me fall

I don't love you, but I always will

I'm completely overwhelmed with my place in life right now. I found out news about a loved one that once again broke my heart. You can hope and pray that someone has changed but the same old shit puts them right back where they were and me right back to my doubtful ways. Its hard to see my parents deal with this by avoiding it. Its as though I'm the only one seeing it for what it is. He cant care enough to save himself let alone any of us from this pain. He thinks hes gotten better but he has so much more to do before coming close. The harder part was not facing what happened but having no one to talk to about it. It was as if I was drowning inside screaming for help but there was no one to reach out their hand. It is haunting me now as much as it did then. My life is a whirl of emotions. So many things are happening I can barely keep up. I have my dream job at my finger tips and I'm so exhaused I want to let it go. I realized I can't I need to step it up in all aspects of my life. It might be exhausting but I can have it all. Please dear God help me get through this and never lose my faith for with out it I'm pointless.

I'm Forgiven..

walk by faith, not by sight.

"we all die. the goal isnt to live forever but to create something that will"

I stood still, vision blurring, and in that moment, I heard my heart break. It was a small, clean sound, like the snapping of a flower’s stem.

When words are many, sin is not absent, but he who holds his tongue is wise.
The things you give up to Christ (e.g. control of your own life) are things you couldn't keep anyway, but the things you gain as a result of faith in Christ (e.g. eternal life) are things you cannot lose.

Don’t be afraid to keep moving on,
For what was before, now has gone,
God wants to accomplish so much more,
But we need to move forward in the Lord. <3

Never forget but always forgive. Love defeats all.

love is not a victory march, its a cold and its a broken halleluja

You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart. (Jeremiah 29:13)

amazingness

"Fall in Love, Not in Line.."

from now on I'll wear my love for you loosly

we just havin' the time of our lives right now :)